Reflection is such a sweet thing, and it’s a joy to re-gain perspective after life tends to get ahead of you. In catching up, I’ve reveled on this:
I have been given quite a gift. That’s exactly what this life is, a gift. This past year I took some time away from school to work, save a little, and try to figure out what I want to do with my life. Over the course of the last 12 months, I’ve moved 4 times, started counseling, changed my major twice, became a member of a new church, and changed jobs. And all the while, Jesus has been romancing my heart in the most beautiful of ways. He’s spoken in all of my love languages. He’s provided comfort through a community of people who love Him, and love others with a fierce intensity that pours from within them. He’s provided financially. He’s given me clarity to see that no matter what I end up doing in life, the one thing I’m sure of is that I want to do it with purpose and with passion. He has let me know and feel freedom. Freedom to love myself, and to forgive. Freedom to break from the mold I’ve been forcing myself to grow into all my life.
He’s given me direction. A few months ago I declared psychology as my major for my bachelors, and set the goal to get my masters in counseling at Reformed Theological Seminary. He let me in on something big right away. He let me know it’s going to be a longer road than what I probably see as ideal, but He’s promised to give me a patient heart for the journey. (Thank goodness, because I can be one anxious cookie!) He’s given me glimpses of how I’ll spend at least some of my days in the meantime. Live Alive is His calling for me here and now, and I am certainly brimming with passion! College ministry isn’t what I pictured for myself, but getting deep, and real, and messy, and being relational is, and that’s exactly what I can see ahead. Boy, does He know the depths of my heart. I am joyful and excited to keep walking this road with my King. He’s a man who’s after my heart, who cares deeply and tenderly for my soul. I couldn’t have dreamed for a sweeter romance.